Something that most people have probably never heard of actually. A song called ‘Can’t Fight This Feeling’ by REO Speedwagon.

Our son Hunter brought it for us after Ben and I were going through a rough patch. When I put it on Ben said he hoped it wasn’t some rap crap. It couldn’t have been further from that. It was romantic, and we’re still amazed that Hunter even found it, let alone gave it to us. After some initial laughs about it, Ben took me into his arms and we danced. Being in Ben’s arms is the best place in the world.

Anyway as I was saying it is my favorite song but it’s also painful to listen to in some ways because it brings back memories from that time.

I’d just had my comic book, which I wrote and Justin did the art for, accepted by a Hollywood producer. To say that we were excited would be an understatement. Unfortunately at the same time, Ben was receiving continual rejections for the novel he had written. I understood how he felt and tried to be there for him but it didn’t seem to be enough. Although he wouldn’t admit it at the time, he was jealous. So instead of talking about it, he shut himself off from me and eventually turned to someone else who told him what he wanted to hear. He’d asked me to be honest when telling him what I thought about his novel but when I was he didn’t want to know, so I was left feeling hurt and unsure of what to do to make things right.

You have to know Ben to understand why he’s like he his. He takes time to think things through before finally opening up and explaining how he’s feeling. In this instance he did it by writing another short story. The words he couldn’t say to me, face to face, he said in that story. To say some of them didn’t hurt would be a lie. He had almost cheated on me, something which I never thought he would do. I like to believe he wouldn’t have gone through with it, actually I know he wouldn’t have, but the doubt was there for an instant.

So when he took me into his arms and I told him the part of his book that I liked best was when ‘the gift giver decided not to sleep with the bug chaser and went back to his partner’, he knew how I felt.

So perhaps you can understand why I love this song and why it means so much to me. It brought us back to where were supposed to be, together. I know we will always go through rough times, but I also know that we love each other too much for anything to ever tear us apart.