Something I have in my mind for a long time is to book a trip to Tibet for Ben and I. He’s never talked about going since that day he decided he already had what he wanted…me….and decided to stay in Pittsburgh.

When he had said he was going to be away for six months one part of me was happy he was going to do something he had always wanted, the other part didn’t want him to go. But I couldn’t tell him that. I knew it was what he needed after his days in the hospital and I did what he asked and gave him my blessing. I knew he would come back to me and that I would be here waiting for him. There was no doubt in my mind about that. Even then I knew that we had something special and being apart for six months was a small price to pay for the future I knew we were going to build together.

I’ve checked out prices and tours over the years but every time I start to plan it, something came up. JR was born and honestly I didn’t want to be away from her for the first few months then we bought the house and needed the money for renovations. Leaving Hunter at home was another worry, I was pretty sure he would be okay by himself but that didn’t stop me worrying.

Now five years have passed and there is nothing stopping us. So I’ve been on the net without Ben knowing and reading everything about Tibet, which took a long time, considering I knew nothing to start with. The photos blew me away, beautiful lakes and rivers, snow covered mountains, shrines, temples and monasteries and I could imagine Ben and I spending days exploring and nights making love in a small hotel nestled amongst the mountains.

I wanted to give him this. So I booked and paid for it and when the tickets arrived I put them in a card for his birthday next week and hugged the thoughts of traveling around Tibet and seeing it through Ben’s eyes to myself.